Ignore this post.

I just want to write something without having a topic to write with. But that is not the problem. The problem is that i have missed writing so much.

I am having my mid-semester exams right now, but i can't concentrate to the fullest extent. I'm not sure why.

If it's because i can't wait for the mid-semester breaks, i am not that looking forward to it. Honestly i am not looking forward to anything. All i am doing now is just looking for instant gratifications, temporary happiness, merrymaking that doesn't last a lifetime.

But at least that's better than nothing, aite?

Avoid-ant.

If i say i am in no mood, or in no condition, to go and meet or gather with old friends and acquaintances., what i mean is i do not have the motherfucking mood to acknowledge you.

Desire controls me or i control my desire?

Wanting something so much to the point of needing it.

Is it me?

Or am i the only one who is pessimistic about the new year?

Surprisingly its over. But a new one begins.

I used to be a stalker to a few people. But not borderline stalker, just internet stalker. I would regularly visit their profile to see what's new and view their photos and just look at how much they've changed and how happy they are without me.

To me, that activity savours much loneliness and envy. Envy of how other people, people i know can have happy times without me. And loneliness for it is a part of me, blood bounded.

But now, surprisingly, to my admiration, i have lost all my keenness towards stalking said people. I have lost interest in knowing what is going on with their lives since they are not that keen in knowing of mine. I have lost the enthusiasm to strike up a conversation with them since some of the times when i did, they act as if humoring me, not treating me with respect (hustle, loyalty, respect-sorry can't resist).


But perhaps, probably, i have found a new person to stalk and delve into. This new person is much more interesting.

What the eff?

Now eveybody's got a DSLR camera?

To those who don't own one, let's be friends.

Alice un Wundabar.

Can't wait for Alice in Wonderland this year. I've always had a crush on her. And she always had the amazing adventures.

"One side makes me taller, while the other side makes me smaller. Hmmmm"

The problem today.

We don't get enough sunshine.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy, when skies are grey,
Don't really know dear, how much i love you,
So please don't take my sunshine away.


So who can be my sunshine?

To start things off.

Let me introduce myself. They call me Heartbreaker.

I ensnare them with my machinations and charms. In my presence, they are bedazzled by the sheer honesty in my appearance. I am a man of my words and they call me the wordsmith as i am a person of many words.

I do it for them really, make them feel less vulnerable, make them feel secured and make them trust me with all trust they have. Until a certain point, when it comes for me to go and take my leave, to let them learn what they must, i will leave and let them be. It may seem harsh and cruel, but it is what is needed to be done. To make those hypnotised by me, learn the reality of this effed up world.

Besides, sometimes its surpsingly easy for me, although unintentionally, to break down those walls people make and shatter them to pieces from inside and take off just like that.

Heartbreaker, because everytime i leave, my heart breaks. Lolzzzz

Simplicity in contentment.

To be content and happy is of the utmost priority. But in order to achieve that goal, it must not be done byoverdoing. Instead use simplicity. Become a simpleton. Try live in the simple.

For in the simple, we do not have high impossile unachievable standards. We have but mere ones, that are easy to hold on to and to grasp.

My point being, i spent celebrating my new year with my roomates in our room with the celebratory cake and celebratory firecrackers and celebratory pictures with celebratory neighbours. All those in the atmosphere of simple and all in all i am happy and content.

Take that you complicated.