Thursday, 24 January 2008

Smile and the world will smile with you. A very true saying i must say. Sometimes the things we do not expect happens in front of us and we're just to ignorant to notice it first-hand. I have experienced this social phenomenon but i just started to notice it as well. I was too careless and ignorant but now that i am very aware of this i will try to understand and better myself. For instance, i have always loved walking home after school, taking lonely walks just thinking about my day and everytime i bumped into a stranger i smiled and they looked suspicously at first but as time passes and they recognize my face they started smiling back and that smile, that kindness from a stranger, from someone whom i haven't met personally made my day a lot better. Just by one smile, It's amazing how people affect your lives but you just don't know how and who. So the moral of this stroy is smile always and i assure you it will be rewarding. I promise. :)

Wednesday, 23 January 2008

Sometimes we feel like we have to fix something, repair something that isn't supposed to be repaired. Soemthing that isn't broken or shattered to pieces in any way whatsooever. it's just from our eyes it seems different and we have the need to fix it and make it better to he way we are used to. we just can't accept the fact that things are changing and so do people. They change to make a better start, they change to help others heck they change just for the sake of change. But change is a very big word, it requires a lot of time and energy and we aren't used to different things and this just adds to the frustration and anger that we already have been harbouring inside of us since the first unexpected change took place. We just have to accept that fact and move on with our lives and if some changes happens to us, just go with the flow or you can swim against the tide, but it will be difficult not to mention exhausting. You just have to adapt to new formations and make the use of it to better relationships or anythign else. Don't try to fix something that doesn't need to be fixed. Accept it the way it is. that's just it.

Monday, 21 January 2008

The more you stay with someone or constantly hanging out with them the more you will likely fall in love, or perhaps feel confused and think that it is love when it really isn't. You just have to differentiate between friendship and love and know how to handle and confront both subtle-ly and maybe straightforwardly. Well fortunately i haven't experience this situation and unfortunately i haven't experienced it. I would like to feel the happiness of love and the bliss that comes with it. But on the other hand i would not go so far to the extremes to achieve that goal, to me it is important but not as half as important as trying to be succesful in my career. If this does happen, i'll just go with the flow and see where it leads and if i fall, i'll just get back up and put my head in the game once more.
Lately i have been sentimental and during that period i have come up with a poem that is damn cheesy but i'm going to post it anyway just to satisfy my yearnng for blogging. :)

remember how it was me and you,
oh, all the things we used to do,
we'd have fun all on our own,
and look how much we have grown,
we were young then and we didn't knew,
what this big wide world had brew,
but one thing we learnt then,
one thing that can ease the pain, are our friend,
when trouble comes to this new day,
and when you fall or led astray,
just don't let it make you frown,
turn that sad face upside down,
just know that your friends'll be there,
no matter what when or where,
and if thay aren't there to be,
you still aren't very lonely,
you just have to go it at your own,
they'll still support you on and on,
and being there doesn't mean being there,
it can mean giving courage to bear,
and you will have strength to continue,
and make your life a blissfull new,
don't forget who remembers you,
because they're the ones who help you to,
achieve your hopes and dreams,
making your life shines with beam.


Monday, 7 January 2008

Too much demands but too little production. problems problems.

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same
One little slip and i take the blame? One small mistake and i'm done for? well life is just unfair being that people get away with murder whereas i get away with nothing but strappless dignity and total humiliation. I am particular about the sense of right and wrong and to me this is soo wrong. Why am i not allowed to do what i please while others can? Why do i have to attend to the needs of others when my owns are abandoned? I mean just one day, just one day i want to load off and release the bottled up feeling and emit emotions unfathomable and because of that i am labelled as being unmyself. Trying to distance thyself from thou art. Just let me tell you this, there are some who are chocolate sundae's, and some who are banana split with cherry on top and others who are strawberry cones. As for me I am a little bit of everything. Don't get me wrong, i love the crowd and i love being in the presence of companionship but after all of that strenous activities, i am in dire need of "me" time. Time to recharge and to be intuitive of my feelings and thoughts as well as emotions. I just want to say sorry for the unreplied, unresponded. I will try better next time.
azuan ayob.

Sunday, 6 January 2008

Saturday, 5 January 2008


My new found favourite band. hmmm, The sound of the lead singer is just amazing, his vocal chords are superb in a way that he can lullaby you to sleep. Plus Keane is an out of the ordinary band since they have no guitarist and rely on the rythm of the piano and the drums. It's just original don't you think. I know Keane has been in the industry long enough and i know that you've all heard of them. It's just that i like indie bands or just bands that people don't listen to anymore, not that i want them to be unfamous or anything, i just sort of want to be the only one in my circle of friends who like bands that others don't. That's stupid but that's me. :)

They're most famous songs include "everybody is changing" , "somewhere only we know", "this is the last time", "bedshaped", "is it any wonder" and many more. I can't wait to go to t he music store and get their albums, all of them if possible. They're songs are inspiring and heart-throbbing. And i seriously hope they make more concerts here in Malaysia, ehehe. But Michael buble is still my number one. :)

Friday, 4 January 2008

I didn't asked for your coming and I did not made you go against your will. You came by your own and it is your doing that left you alone under the crying sky. I do not regret for your catastrophe because it is not I who is supposed to be blamed. It really isn't and i don't care if you go about spreading foul winds of words to the passerbys. Even if they believe and decide to wander away from me I know that deep in my heart I am truthful to myself and to others. Those who are beside me are the ones to trust and be loyal and faithful to. Not to someone who has two sides of one face and thinfs of oneself. I have my rights and i strongly stick to my beliefs of right and wrong. It is a principle which i am accustomed to and i will abide by them as long as strength is in me and breath to breathe.

this presentation is just for mere muses of fun and joy. not.

Thursday, 3 January 2008

I know. It's all wrong. By rights we shouldn't even be here. But we are. It's like in the great stories, Mr. Frodo; the ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger, they were. And sometimes you didn’t want to know the end... because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was, when so much bad had happened? But in the end, it’s only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines, it will shine out the clearer. Those were the stories that stayed with you that meant something, even if you were too small to understand why. But I think, Mr. Frodo, I do understand. I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back, only they didn’t. They kept going... because they were holding on to something.

Samwise Gamgee said that, i was inspired by those words when i was watching Lord Of The Rings; The Two Towers. It made me think. To me those words mean that with all that is bad in this world, there is still good. When faced with challenges and obstacles, when you feel in despair, when you feel like there's no hope, when you think about giving up, don't. Because there is always hope and there are ways to overcome those problems. Holding on to something gives us strength and determination to go on in life. It gives us power to dominate our life and shape it the way we choose to. Even if when all else seems to fail, believe in yourself, belive in your friends and the "shadow" will pass. And a new day comes full of joy and luaghter and merrymaking. You just have to go on and never look back. Never take a step backwards, just stand your ground and move forward litttle steps.

For your information, this post was made during midnight and i was very high on chocolate. Forgive my sentimental-ness. :)

Tuesday, 1 January 2008

Boredom killer

I took some test online and i was pleased with the result that i got, check it out. :)

Take this test!

You're open minded, extroverted, free-spirited, and independent. Chances are you're pretty liberal. You're like a magnet for love and affection. People adore you. And, thanks to that healthy dose of self-confidence, you're super-flexible.

Chances are, you're a great leader at work. You're also a self-starter and will always volunteer to take on a job. You're also an excellent communicator and tend to spread your enthusiasm to others.

And that's just scratching the surface!


We all have dreams and aspirations, some are big and some are small. It doesn't matter what size does your dream have but how it will affect everyone and yourself when that dream has come true. I just wish that i can say that i have reached my dreams when i grow up. But my dreams are like countless, i don't know how am i supposed to make all of them come true before i die but i'll try my best, thats what matters the most. :)

so here are some of my childish yet true dreams.

  1. I'd like to stay after the movie ended and watch aimlessly into the screen while the credits roll
  2. slide down the handlebars on the escalators
  3. rollerblade indoors
  4. wear a power rangers outift
  5. fly a plane and touch the clouds
  6. go to alice's wonderland and small talk with the cheshire cat
  7. date a superstar
  8. do the jiggy on the dancefloor with anyone
  9. go to one of michael's concert
  10. be in a band and get rich and famous
  11. find out where my birthmark is
  12. bungeejump
  13. produce a novel and then later a movie based on the award winning novel
  14. backpacking around the world
  15. become a renown photographer in conceptual photography
  16. snowboarding and waterskiing
  17. make a documentary of a lost civilisation
  18. become an explorer
  19. learn six different language
  20. supervise a surgery
  21. eat desserts for a whole day
  22. pop balloons
  23. become a psychologist expert on a certain field
  24. get myself my own house
  25. purchase Bumblebee, the car version of course
  26. Act in a multi-million making movie

These are all of my dreams for now, i know i have loads more but i'll update when i think of them.

Mad streak

I'm so worked up about something that i am not sure will happen or not, but everytime i think of it it just makes me so mad and angry that i want to go into total shutdown from all contact. I know that friends are friends and the more challenges we face together makes us stronger and makes the bond stronger eventhough the problem is caused by the very same friend, but i just can't take it anymore and i just can't and won't trust that friend again. I've poured everything into this bowl of friendship but the friend tampered with the ingredients spoiling the bowl. Now all i have for that friend is nothing because all of my provisions are used up trying to make a new bowl of friendship but ending up being tampered again and again. I know that we've had this companionship since we're small but you're the one who took the bowl and smash it to the floor braking it. Now i'll just avoid you but i won't confront you because you know it's my weakness. Please get the idea FRIEND.

Why do you build me up, buttercup
Just to let me down and mess me around.
What a great way to start the year eh? '_'