Thursday 25 September 2014

Seorang Akhi

The world revolves and orbits nonstop. It doesn't stop just because something happens to you. And yet, when something so profound, so devastating, so surprising that comes at you shocking, you expect that the world has to stop, even for a moment, because you need that moment to take it all in, take the experience, absorb it slowly, digest it emotionally, to have a better understanding at what is going on. 

But then the saying emerges, the world doesn't revolve around you. And life goes on. It passes by, at its own pace, so much so, that you are just barely keeping up, that you feel like you are always getting left behind to a point where you feel like you're at the end of the line hanging by a thread waiting for the ball to drop.

Which makes you realize nonetheless, life goes on, at its own pace, without noticing your existence, making you feel insignificant, adding to the list of long insignificancies(?) you are already aware of yourself. 

You end up speechless, unable to comprehend the meaning of the timeline, eventhough you believe that there is a silver lining to every incident, believing that the All-knowing, Almighty has His plans, you still end up flabbergasted in awe of it all. 

I was very lucky to have been able to meet him, to get to know him even for a brief moment compared to those more near and dear to him. Enclosed with this post, is a picture of a dessert that i did get to enjoy stuffing myself after watching how he made it so simply yet so deliciously. This was the last dessert- perhaps in the so forgetful mind that i have- that i have been able to have shared, during the last meeting of my very latest memory i have of him.

Eating it incited in myself to try to make one of my own but i have never been able to cook up the exact replica of his, which makes it ok for me, since that made it unique and one of a kind. 

May allah forgive him, May Allah grant him the best of Jannah to have undergone a great and hard test together with his family, may Allah ease his family and their trials. He has taught me so much, when actually i thought that i should have been teaching him. It goes to show that life is where you learn and never stop doing so, that you can learn many things from many people all around you. You just have to listen and learn.

Hadith narrated by Abu Hurayra that can be found in Sahih Muslim (#1631) and al-Tirmidhi (#1376) that The Prophet (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) said, 

“When the son of Adam dies, all his deeds come to an end, except for three: ongoing charity, beneficial knowledge or a righteous son who will pray for him.”

May your deeds still multiply in the actions and akhlaq of those hearts you have touched so softly.

And also another picture is about the last time i was with him and other brothers during our last halaqah. After the disbandment of the halaqah-in other words me having to relocate and them being passed to another more reliable murabbi- i never really got the chance to see and talk to him properly.

Although i did get a chance to see him during his stays in the hospital and i was very relieved to have had the opportunity to at least visit him face to face during his hardship.
I pray for the best.

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