I can't believe I'm trying to be someone who I am not just to satisfy the needs of someone. I can't believe i am a fake trying to fit in this particular group. After all that despising and hating people who are just putting a face up, i am one of them at last. How i must despise myself more than i have despised others for doing the very same thing i hate other people doing and for obstructing my own principles. I must stop this lie for no one will accept me if i am not myself and by chance they don't accept who i am then of course that means they don't deserve to be my friends. I deserve better.