Now it hits me.

A pang hits me in the chest, a heartbreak hits me in the heart, but this doesn't feel anywhere physically.

It's a soul hurt. And it hurts so much feeling lost and alone.

This morning, watching Glee to make it all feel alright, but it just makes it worst. Reminding me of everything that had happened. Like everything was a dream. Like it never happened.

But i have all these memories saying that it was real. It IS real.