Do you know how hard it is for me to play the nice guy in front of people i don't like eventhough i know little by little i show a glimpse of my hatred to them. But still i show my kindness, smile when our faces meet. But deep down, oh how i want to scream i hate you. Like i said, i play the nice guy and this act is getting to me. It's seeping into my nervous system. I just can't help but think, would life be much more easier if i just air out all those emotions.

Do you know how hard it is to feel like you're not in control for your own life. Eventhough you actually know that you can be in control, you can be the leader of your life. Only that you don't have the courage, the drive, the determination to cease the opportunity that has been laying right in front of your nose this whole time. But the feeling of afraid, of probabilities, just lowers your confidence.

Do you know how hard it is to like someone who has already a someone special. To like someone who thinks you as a friend. To like someone who is already liking someone else. To like someone who belittles you. To like someone who just makes you feel the unbearable feeling of jealousy but most of all the emotion of missing. To like someone whom you miss but whom has never returned that feeling back.

Do you know how hard it is to endure all the criticism in this harsh world you call life. Do you know how ashamed it feels in order to hide the object of those criticism, you divert it to someone else's weakness. How embarrassed it is to feel to put the attention on someone else's insecurities.How guilty it is to lie, to blame and to ignore.

Do you know how hard it is to feel empathy to someone unlucky than oneself. How hard it is to cope with the fact that you cannot stop to sympathize everyone in this whole world but unable to do anything about it. But most of all, how tough it is to feel sorry for others but not sorry for oneself. To feel sorry for others whom never have felt sorry for ourself.

Do you know how hard life is? But do you know that humans are much more harder, much more flaccid. Much more tougher. Much much more.