Let's lay all the cards on the table.

Changing aspects of my life little by little. Growing, changing, evolving. As a start, I'll put out all the feelings i kept on the inside, out on the open.

I am scared. I am really afraid that i'll leave and won't be able to go at it on my own. It is very difficult to love a whole new person, to get to know new people, live with them. But most of all, i am terrified that i will not get this opportunity.

Disappointing people who have high hopes for me is a lot more horrible than getting disappointed, and that is what i am afraid of. My parents and family are all enthusiastic about my future, while me, i am too afraid too get all my hopes up, too afraid to get crushed, to fall from a very high place. But i am still hoping.

Now that the cards are on the table, let's shuffle and play some poker.