Haih, aku seriously tak suka lah bila tak ada duit ni. UUURGH!

I just watched Underworld: The Rise of the Lycans.

Yesterday i watched Inkheart.

Before that i went to the cinemas for Outlander. Before that was Maut. And before that, They Wait. And Brainscan and so on.

Eventhough i have watched all these movies in the past week or so, like how i used to love doing during my glory days in high school, i still feel empty.

I have lost the love and the desire for everything i used to enjoy.

For example, as you can see, i have disinterest in watching movies. I mean i still go to the cinemas, but i have not enjoyed any of them lately. I feel nothing towards each and any one of the movies i have watched.

Not only that, i have also lost interest in gaming, taking pictures and editing them (which i so much adored), buying new shirt with cool one-liners, reading blogs, making friends and so on and so forth.

If you know me very well, which i guess none of you do, before all this, i was a very friendly person. I loved making friends and i keep in contact with everyone. Everyday i would comment them and pass them little Cadbury chocolates.

But now i just can't even simply reply a text message. The earliest i could reply is in between three to four days, which by then i would feel like it is useless to reply a message that is already a few days old.

I think i am really becoming the epitome of an antisocial. Or perhaps a noob antisocial. Whatever.

But amidst all this antisocialisme, i feel a bit contented. I feel a slight tingle of happiness. I do not know why, but what i know is i am a very lively person and can have fun but sometimes i need to stay home and recharge. Perhaps this is me recharging after a few years being very friendly and all, i just need some "me" time. I guess.

If only psychiatry was not that expensive. If only Freud was not that into the "people are fueled by sexual desires" shit (although sometimes i do agree). If only Carl Jung was still alive. Maybe they could help me out a little. Just a bit.


Kawan: Nanti aku dapat gaji nak beli handphone baru lah kot. Yang baru tuh, ala 3gi1100fyckwhatever tuh. Yang ada 3g 4g dan boleh guna memory 200gb.

Kawan lain: Emm aku nak baju yang ari tuh tuh. Yang cantik gila tuh kat kedai StUPIDIOTs. Sekarang ramai pakai style tuh, aku nak ikut trend itu.

Kawan lain punye lain: Ala korang ni baik beli Bipod. Lagi best. Boleh letak lagu, main game, letak movie tangkap gambar. Lagi power kot. Memory dia dah 1 juta gb dah.

Kawan mana-mana lah: Wei Awan. Kau pula nak beli apa dengan gaji kau?

Don: Aku nak beli buku Watchmen yang sudah lama aku nantikan. Kalau tak ada kat malaysia aku nak beli online jugak.

...silence...


I know, i am really lame. But do i look like i care? Perhaps a little, but suka-fucking-hati aku lah.